I can't afford treatment anymore. Not until September when my flex plan starts again. I never dreamed when I made my elections and signed up for a huge chunk of my check to go to my medical account that it would be drained by April. I tried to make it work. I even decided to not refill my ungodly expensive migraine preventative so I could at least keep up with S. I'm going to have to go get it though. The headaches are back and worse than ever. Maybe they seem so bad because I had so long with out them. Either way it's becoming increasingly harder to function each day. I have less patience with the kids and I'm very noise sensitive. Last night I had to take more than normal to get to sleep and tonight my head feels like it's going to explode. I'm really regretting my decision to pass up my prescription for the pain meds because those were at least cheap and effective if only a quick fix. At the time I really didn't need them and wouldn't now if the other weren't so expensive.
Headaches are a common complaint among people with ED. The statistical correlation of the disorders with treatment for migraines is very high. I'm fully aware that my own behaviors could be to blame for my condition. If I could change my life just like that then I wouldn't have the high medical bills, but that's not the way it works. My ex neurologist would have me believe that it is a disorder of itself and one that I will have for the rest of my life. How much can you trust an opinion from a guy that only makes money off you if he makes you believe that? Side effect, disorder, or both it doesn't really matter. I'm miserable. I can't concentrate on getting better and be in this severe state of constant pain.
I shouldn't have to choose between the two, but that's how the 'wonderful' American health care system works. People who argue things like universal health care only help the 'poor' are ignorant. It's people like me, who pay my fair share of taxes and uphold my place in our society, that get screwed the way things are. People like me have to make choices between which medical issues to seek help for and which I can try to do without so that I can pay bills and live life. But then again it's just my mental health... I should just 'get over it'. It's just 'all in my head'. Or to take the advice of the wonderful doctor I saw recently, just take up rock climbing.
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